Ed and Kathy
by
Lazlong

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Prelude

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I am Edward Dobson, known by everyone except my mother as Ed. Im six feet tall and weigh 190 pounds. I have blondish hair and blue/gray eyes. Im sixteen years old and Ive been told by all of my teachers that Im exceptionally gifted. So, what is wrong with this picture? Im also a nerd.

I am the middle of three children. My brother John is two years older than me and last year he was quarterback and captain of the Medford High School football team. John had been offered, and has accepted an athletic scholarship to UCLA. 

I also have a sister, Kathleen. At fifteen, she is a beauty. As a freshman, she was elected to the homecoming queens court at the exclusive, private school where mom had her enrolled. Everyone figures shell be queen for the next three years. Kathleen isnt a bad kid and she isnt stuck up at all. If it hadnt been for moms constant reminders that she felt Kathleen was more important than me, we might have been very close.

Now school is about to start again. Im not looking forward to it. Im going to be a senior this year and most seniors are anticipating all of the parties and dances and sports, but not me. Ive never had a girlfriend; in fact Ive never even been on a date.

I am trying to do something about that. I had a full time job all summer, working for a local software company. I bought myself an older car to drive to work and it will also give me some more mobility at school as well. I started working out at the beginning of summer. Ive put on some muscle weight and lost all of my baby fat.

I knew I look a lot better than I ever have. I also know that looking better hasnt helped me get over being tongue tied around girls. I run into Mindy Toliver a couple of weeks before and I thoroughly embarrassed myself as I usually do when Im around a pretty girl.

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Things hadnt changed at school. I knew it as soon as I had parked my car and started toward the building. Two of the football jocks who had given me trouble all the way through school were leaning against one of their cars and I had to pass right by them.

Hey, its the computer weenie, Jeff Wilson said to his buddy, Sam Silvers.

Looks like hes growing up a little bit, Silvers said.

Yeah, but hes still a geek, Wilson replied.

Hey, Dobson, you still fucking your right hand? Both of the jocks thought that was hilarious. 

I didnt. I just walked on passed them as if I hadnt even heard them.

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Things did seem to be a little bit different though, or maybe it was just my imagination. When I went into Home Room, a couple of girls, who wouldnt have even spoken to me last year, seemed to be checking me out.

My first class was Advanced Physics. Ive always been interested in Physics and I was looking forward to this class for another reason as well. It was very unlikely thered be any jocks in it. In fact, there werent many people in the class at all.

I counted fifteen kids before class started. Only two of them were girls. One of them I knew. Marsha Phillips and I had been competing in class for the last four years. I knew Marsha, but I didnt like her. She had one of those personalities that left you feeling she thought she was better than you.

The other girl, Id never seen before. Not that there was much to see now. She had reddish, brown hair that was not much darker than mine. I couldnt tell how tall she was because she was already sitting down when I came in. Her body? With the clothes she was wearing, I assumed she had a body, but I really couldnt tell.

She had on a long, loose skirt that came down to her ankles. Her blouse was loose and bulky. It had long sleeves and it was buttoned all the way to her throat. 

Her face was cute, but nothing to write home about.

Physics class was great. Id had the teacher, Mr. McClasky, last year and I liked him. He described the curriculum and it sounded interesting. Everyone in the class seemed to participate, which is always a plus.

My second period class was Calculus. I hadnt expected there would be any more in that class and there wasnt. Fifteen kids again with the same two girls. Now, how the hell was I supposed to meet a girl and build up enough courage to ask her for a date when there werent any girls in my classes?

Third period was a little better. Senior English was a mixture of about half boys and half girls. It was also a much larger class. There were probably 25 or 26 people in the class. The problem was, Id gone to school with most of the girls in the class since seventh grade.

I ran into Skippy Henderson going in to lunch. Now, if Im a geek, Skippy is a GEEK. Skippy is into computers as much or more than I am. At least he was someone I could talk to during lunch.

My first class after lunch was Advanced Computer Languages. I figured it was going to be a fairly easy course for me. I could already program in almost every programming language known to man. Id had Mr. Abreze in class before, so I knew hed keep it interesting. The same new girl was in this class as well.

I had to take an American History class as well. I had it in sixth period and then I had a study hall in seventh period. I figured Id get most of my homework done in the study hall. That would leave my evenings at home to work on my real interest.

Id had an idea for the last couple of years for a different type of operating system for computers. Most operating systems have to be so diverse and have to be able to run so many different types of programs that they are very slow.

Thats okay for most computer users and applications, but for a computer operating in real time, its a real drag. Ive been working for some time on an operating system that has a basic core that handles things like disk operations and anything else that is needed for the machine to function as a computer. Then, theyll be modules that can be added on as needed. 

My biggest problem has been getting the modules to work with the core and with each other. Ive had more failures than successes so far, but Im sure the concept is valid and so I keep plugging away at it.

By bedtime, I was starting to get a little frustrated, so I knew it was a good time to quit.

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Mr. McClasky has a method of teaching a class that makes it very interesting. He requires a lot of class participation and he seems to be able to draw every student into the discussions without making them feel pressured.

Its inevitable in a small class that you get to know the other students. Physics was no exception. By the end of the period I knew that the mystery girl was Kathy Rienke and that she had transferred in from out of state. She was dressed just as dowdy as she had been yesterday.

When class ended, I stopped to ask Mr. McClasky a question. We talked for a minute, and then I told him I had to get to Calculus. When I got into the hallway, I saw something that made my blood run cold. Wilson and Silvers were badgering the new girl.

Kathy was backed up against a bank of lockers and Wilson and Silvers had her blocked off so that she couldnt escape. Silvers was saying, Come on, nerd girl, show us your pussy.

I dont know where I got my courage from. Maybe it was just rage that had built up over the years. I walked over to them and said in my deepest, most menacing voice, Leave her alone. Just back off and leave.

 Wilson whirled around and looked at me. Well, if it isnt the geek, he said. Get the fuck out of here if you dont want to get hurt, geek.

I laid my books down on the floor and balled up my fists. I didnt say a thing, I just glared at him. 

You heard him, geek, get the fuck out of here, Silvers said as he took a step toward me.

When I get through kicking the shit out of both of you, Silvers, Im going to rip your dick off and shove it down your throat. Then, Im going to rip Wilsons dick off and shove it up his ass. Its your choice. Give it your best shot.

I dont know if it was my tone of voice, or the look in my eye, but something got through to Silvers. They could have killed me on the spot and I was well aware of that, but I wasnt going to let them know it.

They postured for a minute or two, then made a retreat throwing threats over their shoulders as they went. I looked over at Kathy and asked, Are you okay?

Yes Thank you.

Youre very welcome. Im Ed Dobson.

I know. Youre in all of my classes. Im Kathy Rienke. Her head was down and she was looking up at me through her eyelashes as she spoke.

Its nice to meet you, Kathy. Can I walk you to Calculus?

That would be nice, but I think its too late for us to go in now, she said.

I looked at the clock and she was right. What a way to start the semester, I said. We cut a class on the second day of school.

Kathy laughed and the entire hallway lighted up. My God, shes beautiful when she smiles. Theres a bench right outside that door, I said, pointing. We could sit out there until English class.

Kathy hesitated for a minute, then nodded. She followed me outside and we sat on opposite ends of the bench.

So, you transferred in from out of state? I asked, just trying to make conversation.

Yeah, California. My dad is in the army.

Ill bet that makes it tough. Have you had to be in a lot of different schools?

Yeah, Im usually never in a school for more than a year or two.

Wow! Ive been here all of my life. Sometimes I wish I had been able to go to another school though.

Why is that?

Well, you heard those two goons call me nerd boy. Thats been my name since the fifth grade when I got a double promotion.

Kathy was looking up more now as we talked. Ive heard the female equivalent of that a lot myself. Can I ask you something?

Sure, go ahead, I said, dreading her question.

You dont seem like a violent person, but from what you said to those two, I think you had them peeing their pants. Would you have really done to them what you said you were going to do?

Kathy, Im not a violent person. Ive never been in a fight in my life. Ive been beat up quite a few times, but Ive never fought back.

So what made you say what you did?

Ive been trying to figure that out myself. Last year, I was overweight and under muscled. I worked out a lot this summer and it paid off. Deep down, Im still afraid of bullies like Silvers and Wilson, but I decided that this year I wasnt going to let them know that.

Kathy had a very serious expression as she asked, Isnt that dangerous?

Maybe a little, but not as bad as you might think. I did a lot of reading on psychology during the summer. I found out that most bullies just intimidate the people they think they can get away with intimidating. If someone stands up to them, they usually back off.

Its still dangerous and I really want you to know how much I appreciate what you did, she said.

Youre welcome, I said. Now, wed better get moving or were going to miss English class too.

Kathy and I sat side by side in English class, front row, center. Whenever Id glance over at her during the period, Id catch her looking at me. Each time, shed blush prettily.

When I was gathering up my things after class, I noticed she already had hers and she was waiting for me. Wow! That had never happened before. 

As we started walking toward the door, she asked, Would you like to eat lunch together, Ed?

Sure, I said.

We started toward the lunch room and I saw Skippy coming toward us. I waved him off without Kathy seeing me do it, then winked at him. He got the message really quickly and gave me a big grin.

After we had loaded up our trays, we found a table for two. There werent many of them and they were usually hard to come by.

We talked for a while about our first assignment for English class. It was to be a news article about an event, either real or imagined. Remember the five Ws, I told her.

What are the five Ws?

Its the five things an editor always wants in a news article. They stand for Who, What, When, Where, and Why. You should also add How.

Thats interesting. Are you into writing?

Not really. Im more into computer programming. Im working on a new operating system now.

Ah, she grinned. So youre a computer nerd.

Yep.

So am I. Why a new operating system?

I explained my theory to her and then told her of the problems I was running into.

Id like to see what youre doing sometime. I might even have some ideas that would help you.

Thatd be great, I told her. God knows I could use come help right now.

I was really feeling comfortable talking with Kathy, so I told her so. Kathy, Ive never been able to talk with girls, especially pretty girls. For some reason I feel very comfortable talking with you.

Thank you, Ed. For some reason I feel very comfortable talking with you too. Maybe it is because you were my knight in shining armor.

Theres a soccer game tomorrow, after school. Would you be interested in going with me?

Kathy hesitated for a few seconds then said, Im not much into sports, Ed. I guess itd be okay, though.

Actually, we could blow off the soccer and just get something to eat or something if youd like.

No, a soccer game might be fun. Maybe we could get something to eat afterwards, though.

I know I was walking on air when we went to our computer class.

The rest of the afternoon dragged by, but we finally made it through. When I got home, things went down hill even farther.

Evidently my brother had called, and my mother was in one of her John periods. John was all she could talk about for the rest of the evening. Youd think the sun rose and set in Johns asshole.

Mom tended to be that way when it came to my brother and sister. Shed tell everyone whod listen to her about the touchdown pass John had thrown in a game last year. Shed talk about him until everyone around her wanted to kill him off just so shed stop talking about him.

Shed go on for weeks about the dress Kathleen had gotten for the fall dance and about how pretty she looked in it. Shed talk about Kathleens new hair style until I wanted to barf.

Did she talk about me? No. Was I jealous? Probably. Dad never talked or bragged about any of the kids. Then again, dad never talked about much of anything. I doubt hed said five hundred words to me in the last year.

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As soon as I got out of my car the next morning, I knew there was going to be trouble. Wilson and Silvers were standing where theyd been a couple of days before. With them were Bill Simpson and Tony Gates, two more football thugs.

Before I even got to them, Simpson stepped out and blocked my path. I hear youve been making threats, nerd boy. We dont like little shit heads that make threats against our team mates.

Bill, I dont know what youve been told, but those two were terrorizing a girl. She was afraid they were going to rape her, so I stepped in. My heart was beating ninety miles an hour, but I was determined I wasnt going to let them know that.

Thats not the way we heard it, shit for brains, he sneered as Gates started moving around behind me. Wilson and Silvers started moving as well. Now, youre going to pay for showing your ass.

I felt more than heard Gates coming at me from behind, so I swung my elbow back as hard as I could. I made good solid contact with something just before someone else grabbed me. After that, the fight became a blur. 

I know I got in a couple of good licks, but for the most part, they used me for a punching bag. Then I was on the ground and some of them at least were kicking me. The last thing I remember thinking before I blacked out was that I hoped I had broken Gates nose.

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I awoke to the sound of someone crying. My head was being cradled in someones lap and someone was smoothing the hair out of my eyes. I tried to open my eyes, but my eyes didnt want to cooperate. Finally I managed to get them open enough to see that it was Kathy holding me.

Hi Kathy, I said, weakly. My upper lip was split and it really hurt to talk.

Weve got to get you to the hospital, Ed, she said, almost hysterically.

Ill be okay, I said, not really believing it myself.

No! Ed we have to get you to the hospital!

Can you drive? I asked her.

Yes.

I managed to get my keys out of my pocket and handed them to her. Its the blue Ford over there. Can you help me get to it?

Kathy helped me to my car and helped me get inside. It was a struggle. My arms and legs seemed to work okay, but my chest hurt something terrible.

Who did this to you, Ed? Kathy asked as she pulled out of the parking lot.

It was Wilson and Silvers and two others, I told her. I might have held my own against two of them, but the four of them used me for a punching bag and then used me for practicing field goals.

I was afraid of that. Its all my fault, Ed. Im so sorry.

It wasnt your fault at all, Kathy. You have nothing to be sorry about.

Oh, but it is my fault, Ed. If you hadnt been protecting me, none of this would have happened.

Kathy, you are worth protecting, I told her softly.

I reached over and took her hand and gave it a squeeze just before we pulled into the hospital emergency entrance. Kathy stopped the car and ran into the hospital. She was back in a few seconds with two orderlies and a wheelchair.

The orderlies helped me get into the chair and one of them pushed me inside. Kathy walked beside me and held my hand the entire time. She followed me into the treatment room and stayed until the doctor ran her out. Before she left, I gave her my mothers phone number and asked her to call.

The doctor gave me a cursory exam then sent me off to x-ray. They took several pictures of my chest, then sent me back to the treatment room. Kathy must have been watching for me to come back because she sneaked back in almost as soon as they had me in the room.

I called your mom. Shes on her way down here, she told me, looking a little confused.

Thank you, Kathy. I appreciate that.

Can I ask you a personal question, Ed?

Kathy, Ive been able to talk with you better than Ive ever been able to talk with anyone in my life. You can ask me anything, anytime.

Do you and your mother get along okay?

Good question. Why do you ask?

When I told her what had happened to you, she didnt seem all that concerned. I dont think she was even going to come down here until I told her that she would need to sign some forms to give the doctors permission to treat you. Then she sounded disgusted, but she did say shed come.

Okay. You probably hit it right on the head. Mom doesnt treat me badly; she just ignores me. Shes crazy about my older brother and my younger sister. Me, she just tolerates. I know that sounds paranoid, but I believe it is accurate.

Why would she be that way, Ed? Youre very intelligent. Id think shed be proud of that.

I heard her telling the minister one time that she had wanted two children, a boy and a girl. She told him that unfortunately she had ended up with two boys and a girl.

That sucks.

Okay, can I ask you a personal question?

I guess turn about is fair play, she smiled.

You are a very pretty girl, Kathy. Why do you wear such ugly clothes?

Kathy almost looked like I had slapped her. That is a very personal question, Ed.

Im sorry, Kathy. Forget I asked. I felt bad that I had made her feel bad.

No, Ed, I guess you deserve to know. Ive never told anyone this except my parents, so please bear with me. Kathy let out a big sigh then continued. Two years ago I was raped.

Kathys head was down again as it had been the day I first saw her. She looked like I was going to blame her for being raped.

Kathy, I am so sorry. You dont have to talk about this if you dont want to. Just remember, it isnt your fault that you were raped.

Daddy says it IS my fault, Ed. He said if I hadnt been wearing whore clothes it wouldnt have happened.

Hes full of shit, Kath. I dont care if you had been naked, it isnt an excuse for rape. What did your mother say?

Mom is as bad as dad. She said I had been tempting boys for years and that I had gotten what I deserved.

Thats not right, Kath, and you know it. You could be naked with a guy and making out furiously. If at the last instant you decide youre not ready and say stop, he has to stop. If he doesnt, its rape.

I know, Ed. Its just that theyve made me feel so bad about it.

Before I could say anything else, mom came storming in. Whats going on here? she asked shortly.

Four guys beat me up, Mom. Kathy brought me in to the hospital.

I came in and signed the papers for you to be treated. Im expecting a phone call from John, so I have to go. I hope you have a way home, she said, then was out of the room before I could even answer.

Kathy just stood there looking at the door with her mouth hanging open. I couldnt help but smile at her expression. When she finally looked back around at me, I said, It happens all the time. Thats just the way she is. If she had shown any concern Id have been surprised.

But Youre her son and she doesnt even seem to care that you were beaten up.

You were raped and your parents dont seem to care.

We just looked at each other until the doctor came in.

Well, son, it could have been a lot worse, he said. We dont see any signs of internal injuries. You have three cracked ribs, a couple of black eyes, a few loose teeth, and a split lip. You are going to be sore for a while, but theres nothing serious to worry about. Well tape up your ribs and Ill give you a prescription for some antibiotics and some pain medication, then you can go home.

Thank you, doctor. Did you tell my mother about my injuries while she was here?

I havent talked with her yet. Im going to do that right now.

Shes already gone, doctor. Ill pass the information along when I get home.

The doctor looked incredulous. Im sorry, Son, he said and patted my hand before he left the room.

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A different orderly wheeled me back out to the car when they had me all taped up. Kathy was very solicitous about my comfort and I really appreciated it. She asked for directions to my house and I asked her if shed mind driving us to the park first. She agreed, so we headed in that direction.

Kathy, I need to talk some things out with someone. I hope you dont mind, but I dont have anyone else to talk to.

I dont mind at all, Ed. I can see you cant go to your mother about anything.

Dad is almost as bad. All mom can talk about are John and Kathleen. Dad doesnt say anything to me. In fact, dad doesnt say anything to mom or Kathleen either. Sometimes I wonder if he talks at work.

Im sorry, Ed. What did you want to talk about? she asked as she pulled into a parking space in the park.

Ive been thinking about this for a while now. I just wanted to get someones opinion before I did anything. Im thinking about filing for manumission and moving out on my own.

Whats manumission, Ed?

Thats where a minor child can file with the courts and be declared an adult. Then, the child can move out on their own and be in complete control of his or her life.

Are you thinking about moving out of your home?

Yes. I qualify for the work/study program at school. The software company I worked for last summer has already told me theyll hire me for as many hours as I care to put in if I go into work/study, so I could make enough money to afford to do it.

Thats a big step, Ed, but in your case it might be the best way to go. Have you talked to an attorney about any of this?

Yeah, I talked to a young attorney at Legal Aid. He says they can do it. He said Id need a statement from the school saying I qualified for work/study. Id also need a statement from the software company saying they planned to hire me if I went into work/study. Id have to make a sworn statement about my home life and the lack of support from my parents. He said Id have to go into court, but that it wouldnt be a problem.

It sounds like youve thought it out. Maybe you should talk to your parents about it first. It might wake them up as to how theyve been treating you.

Yeah, Ive been trying to work up the courage to talk to them. Ill have to talk to them separately though. I never see them together any more.

Well, right now I think Id better get you home and in bed. I can see from looking at your face that youre in pain.

I didnt argue with her. I was in pain. Besides that, I felt like Kathy and I were developing a bond between us and I didnt want to do or say anything that would jeopardize that.

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Kathy drove me home, then helped me up to my room. We walked within fifteen feet of mom, but she didnt even act like she knew we were there.

Kathy just stood there looking at me. When I didnt do anything, she said, Strip.

Oh, well, this should be interesting. I stripped down to my boxers while Kathy turned down the bed. I got in and she pulled the covers up around me, then sat on the edge of the bed. How far is it to school from here? she asked.

Its about ten blocks. Why dont you take my car and you can pick me up in the morning? Im not sure if Ill feel like driving then anyway.

Are you sure? she asked.

Yes, Im sure. Thank you, Kathy for everything you did for me today. Maybe I can make it up to you sometime.

I really didnt

Mom came slamming into the room without bothering to knock. What the hells going on in here? she stormed. Who is this slut and why is she in your room?

This is no slut, Mom. This is Kathy. She helped me today when you wouldnt. You speak nicely to her or Ill make sure you regret it. I had never spoken harshly to my mother and she looked like Id slapped her.

Just what do you think youre going to do to make me regret it? she sneered.

Im seriously considering reporting you to Child Protective Services for abusing me. The doctors and nurses are well aware that you just signed those papers today and then abandoned me.

But I was waiting on a call from John.

Okay, Mom. I think its time I told you a few things. You might want to take a seat. This may take a while.

I want this woman out of here first. She said.

I took Kathys hand and held it. She stays, Mom. First off, I want to get this out in the open. I know you didnt want me when I was born. Theres no need for argument here. I heard you telling the minister about it several years ago. Secondly, your lack of interest in me or my wellbeing is a form of abuse.

Mom didnt say anything, she just sat there and looked at me. Kathy squeezed my hand.

Im tired of the neglect, Mom, so Ive talked to an attorney about manumission.

She asked what manumission was and I explained it to her. Im going to talk to him again tomorrow and get the paperwork started. That way you never have to be bothered with me again.

Mom looked thoughtful for a minute then said, Maybe that would be best. Ill talk to your father about it, but Im sure hell be willing to sign anything we need to sign, as I will.

She got up and walked out of the room without looking back.

I know I had tears running out of my eyes when she walked out. I knew I was going to do it, but I thought shed have at least tried to talk me out of it.

Kathy put her arms around me and I started sobbing. She held me until I subsided, then she said, I just came to a conclusion, Ed. Your parents dont want you, so fuck em. My parents dont like me, so fuck em.

I looked into her eyes and I could see how serious she was so I said, Fuck em!

Kathy kissed me on the end of my nose then left to get back to school.

I slept a little while, probably about an hour, then called the Legal Aid attorney. He said hed get the paperwork started, but that I should get the statement from the school and from my employer.

After I hung up, I called Marv Barnette at the software company and told him what I needed. He told me hed take care of it and hed have it notarized. He said the paper would be on its way to me by tomorrow. 

Mom didnt call me to dinner and I was hurting enough I wouldnt have wanted to get up anyway. I guess I was feeling sorry for myself. I thought someone should have offered to bring me something.

It was about 8:00 PM when dad came in. I hear you got in a fight, he said.

No, Dad. I was beaten up by four guys. When they got me to the hospital, they thought I had internal injuries, but luckily I didnt. I do have three broken ribs though and various and sundry other injuries. Mom didnt even bother to talk to the doctor when she came to the hospital to sign the papers.

Your mom says you want to move out.

I called an attorney this afternoon. Hes getting the papers started to have me declared a legal adult. Then, Ill be moving out.

Theres no reason to wait until its legal. Find an apartment and Ill pay the first years rent. Then youre on your own. With that said, he got up and walked out of the room. God I wished Kathy was there.

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Kathy picked me up the next morning and I was certainly glad she did. I was so sore I could hardly move. On the way to school, she told me, I got a ration of shit from my parents last night about having your car. They thought it was scandalous for me to be driving a boys car. Fuck em.

I had to laugh, then the pain in my ribs drove the laughter away. I talked to the attorney after you left. Hes getting the paperwork going. I also called my former boss and hes mailing a statement to me today.

Cool. Did your father talk to you last night?

Yeah, he said theres no reason to wait until the papers are filed. He said to find an apartment and hed pay for the first years rent, then Im on my own.

Kathy looked at me and grinned, Fuck em, she said.

I have to see Mrs. Calzone this morning and have her get the paper saying Im eligible for work/study made up. Then I think Im going to blow off school and go looking for an apartment.

Theres an apartment building about two blocks from where I live. They have a sign up saying they have an efficiency apartment open.

That would be perfect. Youll have to give me directions of how to get there.

Ill do better than that. Ill take you. To hell with school today. Fuck em.

You sure are saying Fuck em a lot, young lady, I teased as we were walking into the school building.

You know, until yesterday, I dont think Id said the F word five times in my life. I guess I shouldnt be saying it now, but I guess Ive had a big attitude change. It just feels right.

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Mrs. Calzone knew exactly what I needed and she assured me shed have it ready for me to pick up tomorrow. I asked if she could have it notarized and she said shed have it done.

Kathy stayed with me while I talked to Mrs. Calzone, then we headed out to the apartment building she knew of. 

Al Finney was the apartment manager. He was a little reluctant at first to show us the apartment because we looked so young. I told him the rent would be in my fathers name and that wed be paying a year in advance.

The apartment was basically two rooms and a bath. There was a decent sized bedroom and a living room, dining room, kitchen combination room. The rent was reasonable, so I told him I thought wed take it. I asked if I could use his phone to call my dad.

I called dad at work. He talked to Mr. Finney for a couple of minutes then wanted to talk to me again. He told me to stop by his office and hed give me a check for the rent.

I had Kathy wait in the car when she took me to dads office. I went in and he handed me a check. I said, Thank you, Dad. He just went back to looking at the papers on his desk.

We took the check back to Finney and asked him when I could move in. He told us the rent was paid and handed me a set of keys. 

Kathy took me back by the house so I could pick up my checkbook. I wanted to get a few pieces of furniture. When we got there, there was a note in my room telling me I could have all of the furniture in the room as they were going to make it into a sitting room for Kathleen.

Oh, well. It looked like they were anxious for me to be out. At least I got a bed, dresser, chest of drawers, a computer desk, and a couple of chairs out of it.

I grabbed my checkbook and we went by to see Mr. Pettigrew at the supermarket where I worked summer before last. Mr. Pettigrew and I had gotten along really well and we had talked a lot. I explained to him what was going on with me and asked if I could borrow his pickup truck to move my things over to the apartment.

That bad, huh? he asked. You dont appear to be moving too well, Ed. What happened?

I told him about being beaten. Ill tell you what Ill do for you, my lad. Ive got three young men working for me this year, doing the same job you did for me last year. Theyll show up when schools out. Ill bring two of them with me and well load your stuff and unload it for you.

You dont have to do that, Sir.

If youre going to be an adult, I think you should start calling me Dave. Now, is there anything else you need besides the furniture you have?

I told him what I had. We have an old sofa we need to get rid of. Ill bring that along. My sister has a dinette and chairs sitting on her back porch she doesnt want any more, so well bring that too.

Dave, I dont know how I can ever thank you for this. It is really appreciated.

Thats okay, Ed. Like I said, Ive got three boys doing what you did by yourself. Youre a good man and a good worker. Im proud to call you a friend.

We had to get out of there or I was going to start bawling. Dave said hed meet us at the house at 5:00 PM.

It was just after noon, so we stopped at a burger joint and got something to eat. While we were munching on our sandwiches, I asked Kathy, Can you be there at five or do you need to be home?

Im going to have a big fight about it with mom, but Ill be there. I probably should go by later and tell her what Im doing.

I dont want to get you into trouble, Kathy. Im sure I can drive now.

Fuck em! she said with a big smile.

After we ate, we went over and loaded all of my clothes into my car. I should say, Kathy loaded all of my clothes into my car. She threw a fit when I tried to help.

We took them back over to the apartment and she hung everything in the closet, then put the boxes of clothes in the closet as well. By the time she had everything put away, it was time school would be letting out.

Would you like to go with me when I tell my parents Im going to help you move tonight? she asked me.

There was no place to sit in my new apartment and I didnt want to go home, so I agreed to go with her. As I was locking the door to the apartment, I noticed there were two identical keys on the ring the manager had given me. I took one of them off and handed it to Karen. Would you like a key to my apartment? I asked.

For a moment, Kathy looked stunned, then she smiled and asked, Is this like giving me a pledge pin?

If you want it to be, it is, I said.

You havent even asked me to go out with me yet, she said shyly.

Kathy, would you go out with me? I mean like would you go steady with me?

Yes, I think Id like that, she said. Since youre my boyfriend now, dont you think you should kiss me?

I put my arms around her and she put hers gently around me. The kiss we shared was full of promise.

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Kathys mother is a piece of work. Shes just as bad as mom and probably even more obnoxious. Who IS this? she asked before Kathy even had a chance to introduce us.

Mother, this is my boyfriend, Ed Dobson. Ed, this is my mother.

It is nice to meet you, Mrs. Rienke, I said.

She just ignored me and glared at Kathy. Boyfriend? You know youre not allowed to have boyfriends.

Mother, that was two years ago. Im seventeen years old. For less than a hundred dollars in costs, I can have myself declared a legal adult. Is that what you want?

No, thats not what I want. I also dont want you being raped again.

Im not going to be raped again, mother. I am going to help Ed move into his new apartment this evening though. I should be home by nine oclock or so.

Kathy, you know what happened to you on your last date. I dont want that happening again.

Im seventeen years old, Mom. Im passed the legal age of consent in this state. If anything happens between Ed and me it will not be rape.

Mrs. Rienke looked a little shocked. I guess she wasnt used to Kathy standing up to her. Finally, she said, Okay, no later than ten though. Tomorrow is a school day.

Mom, Ed took a beating yesterday because of me. He has three broken ribs and you can see how his face is messed up. Ed needs help getting his apartment set up and he needs someone to take care of him. I wont be going to school tomorrow, but I should be home by ten.

Karen took my hand and pulled me toward the door before her mother could reply. 

Feisty little thing, arent you? I asked as we got in the car.

Fuck em. She said with a big grin.

Kathy insisted we buy some groceries before we met Dave. We had a lot of fun going through the grocery store. Kathy loaded my refrigerator then we went over to meet Dave.

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When we walked in the house, both mom and dad were there. Neither of them acknowledged us, so we went on up to my old room. I started to unhook my computer, but Kathy made me sit on the bed while she did it.

When she had it all unplugged, she went over to the top of the stairs and yelled, Mr. Dobson, could you come here for a minute?

I almost crapped my pants. No one and I mean no one ever yelled for dad. He came up to my room and Kathy asked, Could you carry the monitor and tower down and put them into the back seat of Eds car Please? Theyre too heavy for me and Ed isnt allowed to lift anything because of his broken ribs.

Dad didnt say a word, but he did pick up the monitor and carried it out. I looked at Karen in disbelief and she said, Fuck em.

Dad came back and got the tower then left again. He didnt come back that time. Dave showed up a little later and he and his two helpers made short work of loading my furniture.

One of the first things they brought into my apartment was the sofa. They set it where I asked them to, then Dave made me sit there while they finished unloading. When they had finished, Dave came in and sat on the sofa with me while his two boys retrieved my monitor and tower.

There are some boxes in the kitchen, he told me. There are some old pots and pans, some old dishes, and some silverware. Its not much, but its the best we could come up with on short notice.

I thanked him for everything, then Kathy thanked him and gave him a little kiss on the cheek.

After Dave had gone, I looked around for Kathy. I found her in the bedroom, making my bed. Sweetie, you dont have to do all of that, I said. 

Just take it easy, Ed. By the way, I swiped the sheets from your mother. I also got you a couple of rolls of toilet paper. Tomorrow, well get cable turned on so you can get your computer hooked up to the Internet.

Its a good thing that electricity and gas are part of the rent, I said. I dont have to worry about them for at least a year.

Kathy made me sit on the couch while she hooked up my computer and got it running. Then she came over and sat beside me.

She snuggled in beside me and I put my arm around her. Tomorrow would you show me the new operating system youre working on? she asked.

I told her I would, then our snuggling got a little more serious. 

Kathy left a little before ten and I was alone in my new apartment. I told Kathy she could take my car home, but she said it was only two blocks, so shed walk.

It felt a little strange, walking around the place, touching things. Everything here, as little as it was, was mine. Neither mom nor dad could tell me what to do with it.

I was also free to set my own bedtime and to decide what I wanted to eat. I was free. Free to swim with the dolphins, or to be eaten by the sharks.

I went to bed at my normal time.

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I was working on my operating system the next morning when I heard a knock on the door. When I opened it, Karen was smiling at me. She hugged me gently, being careful of my ribs.

Why didnt you use your key? I asked her.

Because I knew you were here and I thought you might be curious as to who was knocking at your door.

I stepped back to let her in and asked if shed like some orange juice.

Not right now. The first thing Id like to do is fix us some breakfast. Would you be willing to tell me about your operating system while I cook?

Sure, I said as I pulled out one of the dinette chairs. Maybe talking about it will give me some ideas of what to try next.

I told her about the operating system. I told her about what I wanted it to do and about the problems I was having, getting the modules to talk with each other and with the core unit.

So, are you thinking of multiple processors for the system? she asked.

Yeah. I think thats the only way to take advantage of a system like this.

Is each processor going to have its own RAM?

Well, Ive been trying to use only one bank of RAM, but I guess it would make more sense to have each processor have its own.

Im just trying to think of the hardware as well as the software, Ed. If you gave each processor a couple of gigs of RAM, the RAM would only be accessed by the processor it was assigned to. That would speed up RAM access. It would also let you have the processor and a couple of gigs of RAM on a relatively small plug-in card. You could also have a dedicated core operating system in PROMS on the same card.

Youre saying to make the core operating system into firmware instead of software. That makes a lot of sense.

Breakfast was wonderful. We continued talking as we ate. Kathy is one smart computer woman. Before we finished breakfast we had roughly designed a super computer. Well, at least we had a concept of what a super computer should be.

We talked for a couple of hours then decided wed get cable hooked up for internet access. We went down to the local cable company and got all of the paperwork filled out. I had to leave a hefty deposit since I didnt have any credit established.

We came back to the apartment then worked together to make lunch. 

We spent the afternoon learning about each other. The more I learned about Kathy, the more I liked her. She had always been one of the bright kids, like I had. This, of course, also made her an outcast. Her father being in the military and their moving around so much made her even more of an outcast.

I had a talk with dad last night after I went home, Kathy told me.

I just raised my eyebrows in question. He wanted to know what I was talking about when I told mom Id have myself declared an adult. I told him all about manumission.

How did he react to that? I asked.

He was pissed off, but he controlled himself. He told me I wasnt going to do that. I told him if they kept treating me like a whore I would.

Ill bet that went over big.

Yeah. They want me to stay living with them. I told them the only way I would is if they didnt try to control me. He argued some, but I didnt budge. Well see how it goes.

That was a big chance you took, Kath.

Fuck em, she laughed.

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Intermezzo

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Over the next couple of weeks, I managed to get everything set up for the work/study program. The attorney got all of the paperwork filed with the courts for my manumission. 

I was ready to start my part time job on Monday and I was very glad to be doing so. My savings were dwindling quickly as we were buying things for the computer as well as for the apartment.

Kathy and I had started work on the design of our new super computer. We had to buy a CAD program for the hardware design part and that had set us back quite a bit. Kathy was doing the hardware design of the processor modules while I worked on the firmware for them. 

We needed to work closely on this, so Kathy moved her computer over to my apartment. My computer was still on my desk and Kathys was on the dinette. It wasnt all work. It was a lot of fun and we took frequent breaks.

During our breaks we talked a lot. She told me about her life and I told her about mine. Wed sit on the couch and hold hands or snuggle. Sometimes wed kiss. We hadnt said anything about it, but we both wanted to take things slowly.

After I started work again, Marv was looking over something Id done for them and remarked that hed like to have six more just like me. I hadnt talked to Kathy about it, but I told him I knew a girl who was as good a programmer as I was and who might be interested in getting into work/study.

Marv told me to bring Kathy in and hed talk with her. Within a week, she was in work/study and was putting in the same hours I was at the software company.

As time went on, Kathy was spending more time at my place than she was at home. She told me her parents were grumbling a lot about it, but there wasnt much they could do about it.

Thanksgiving came and went, then Christmas followed. It was right after the first of the year when I asked Marv if he could come by my apartment over the weekend.

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Kathy and I were anxiously awaiting Marvs arrival that Saturday morning. We had made a pot of coffee because we knew Marv drank it by the vat. Wed even moved Kathys computer off the dinette so wed have a place to sit and talk.

When Marv came in, Kathy got him a cup of coffee while I started telling him about our super computer. After Id finished telling him about it, I said, Marv, this is for industrial applications mainly. Things where youd like for one computer to run a warehouse. I could also see it being used by businesses where everything that is being done in an office is being controlled by one computer. It could also be used where you need the power of a mainframe computer, but dont want to spend the money on that much hardware.

Do you guys have anything concrete, or is this just a concept? he asked.

Kathy has completed the hardware design of the core modules and of what were calling the Core Router. Ive completed the firmware for the core units and the software for the Core router. Wed still need to do the software and hardware designs for the other modules.

The problem is, Marv, Kathy continued. Were kind of at a standstill now because although the design of the core modules and router are complete, on paper, we dont have the money to develop the hardware so we can continue.

Marv thought for a few minutes then asked, Have you guys looked into patenting this?

We did a little searching and we cant find where anything like this has been patented. We have no idea what we should be doing to get the ball rolling though. We were hoping you could give us some advice, I said.

Marv wanted to see the hardware design drawings and schematics. He was impressed. Then he wanted me to go over more of the details of the firmware and software. He went through three cups of coffee while we were doing this.

Okay, I can hook you up with a patent attorney. Itd going to cost a couple of thousand to get the patents, at least. Do you kids have that much money?

Not even close, Kathy laughed. 

I think this could be really big, Marv said. Would you guys be interested in a third partner? I could pay for the patent work and I could probably come up with enough money to at least get prototypes of the core modules and the router.

We told him we thought that would be fantastic. We worked out our partnership agreement by just talking about it. I trusted Marv and so did Kathy. Over the years it was proved that our trust was warranted.

We spent most of the day going over things. It was almost dinner time when Marv finally left. Since Id moved into the apartment, although Kathy and I considered ourselves a couple, we hadnt really dated much. Today, we decided to go out to dinner, then a movie.

Kathy went home for some dating clothes and I showered and shaved. When she came back over, she looked fantastic. I had been watching with much interest as she had changed her style of dress over the months. She had gone from a frumpy late middle age look to a stylish twenty something look. 

When she walked in, I was stunned. She walked up to me until our bodies were touching and I leaned down and kissed her. Wed done a lot of kissing over the last few months, but this was special. I could feel her love for me and my love for her was almost overwhelming.

I love you, Kathy, I said as we ended the kiss.

I love you too, Ed.

Youre the first person Ive ever said that to, I told her. 

Yeah. Ive never said that to anyone else either.

Both of us were very thoughtful as we got ready to go to dinner. The restaurant we went to wasnt the most expensive one in town, but it wasnt Burger King either. We had a nice meal and enjoyed each others company more than we ever had.

The movie we went to was a romantic comedy. We laughed our way through it, snuggling together and exchanging an occasional kiss. 

As we were driving home, I asked Kathy if shed like for me to drop her off at her place.

No, if you dont mind, Id like to talk for a while, she told me.

When we got in the apartment, I got us some sodas and Kathy and I snuggled up on the couch. I didnt know what she wanted to talk about, so I just decided to wait until she was ready.

Finally, Kathy sighed and said, Ed, weve practically lived together for months. During that time weve kissed and cuddled. Youve touched my breast a time or two through my clothes, but youve never tried to go any farther. Why is that?

Kathy, I love you. One of the first things I learned about you was that you had been raped. I know there is a lot of trauma associated with a rape so Ive never pressed you for any physical contact. I dont want you to be afraid of me.

Im not afraid of you, Ed. Im glad youve never pushed me, but I think its time we started acknowledging that you are a male and I am a female and that were attracted to each other. That is, if you are attracted to me.

Oh, Im attracted to you alright. Every time we kiss and cuddle I get a hardon you could break rocks with. I just havent wanted to put you in a situation that would remind you of the rape.

Maybe its time I told you what happened. I was fourteen almost fifteen. I had never dated, so I was clueless. Jim Gilroy was the son of one of the most prominent men in the town we lived in. He was sixteen and a football player. When he asked me out, I was overwhelmed.

Kathy looked me in the eyes then went on, When mom found out who wanted to take me out, she was all for it. We were supposed to get something to eat then go on to a movie. We got some burgers then Jim started driving out of town. He asked me if we could just go somewhere and talk for a while and I agreed."

She was almost shaking as she told me this, so I said, You dont have to tell me about this, Love.

Yes I do, she told me emphatically. He drove us out to the local makeout spot and parked the car away from any of the others that were out there. When he turned the car off, he started kissing me. Ill admit that I was thrilled. When things started getting a little too heavy, I broke off the kiss and told him I thought he wanted to talk. He laughed and told me he thought we were communicating quite well.

I hugged her tight when she hesitated. He started trying to kiss me again, but I pulled away and told him Id just like to talk for a while. He said we could talk after we fucked. I told him I wasnt going to fuck him so he slapped me and told me thats what I thought.

Ed, he was much bigger than me and much stronger. I didnt stand a chance. Every time Id try to fight him off, hed hit me. My face was worse than yours was after you were beaten. I was a virgin and he raped me. When he was finished, he pulled his pants back up and started driving.

I managed to get my clothes straightened back up just before he dropped me off a few blocks from my house.

I held Kathy while she cried softly. She her tears had stopped, I said, Kathy, you were a virgin and you are still a virgin. Youve never willingly had sex with anyone, so your virginity is intact. Your virginity is something that cant be taken from you, it is something you give willingly.

Intellectually, I agree with you, Ed, but thats not how I feel.

Kathy, my love, when youre ready for it and we make love the first time, I think youll feel like it was your first time too.

Oh, Im ready for it, Ed. Ive been ready for it for months. I just havent known why you didnt seem interested.

I took her hand and pulled it down to my throbbing erection. Does this seem like Im interested? I asked.

Kathy giggled. Very interested, Id say, she said.

I pulled Kathy in for the most passionate kiss wed ever shared. Our tongues dueled as our hands stroked each others bodies. We were totally breathless when we pulled apart a few minutes later. Kathy spoke one word, bedroom.

We jumped off the couch and practically ran into the bedroom, leaving clothes in our wake. We stopped by the bed and finished undressing each other. When we were standing there, nude, I said, Kathy you are absolutely beautiful.

Thank you, Ed. Now get on this bed and make me a woman.

We kissed and I fondled her marvelous breasts for the first time. It was wonderful. I kissed her nose and her chin, then the hollow at the base of her neck. I moved my lips across her chest and down to her wonderful mounds. I worshiped them with my lips and my tongue for several minutes before I pulled one of her nipples into my mouth.

I sucked and nibbled on her nipples until she was gasping, then I started working down her beautiful body toward my ultimate goal. Her lower lips were swollen and wet as I approached them and her scent would have aroused a Priest.

I had no idea what I was doing, so I just started licking her pussy from bottom to top with broad strokes of my tongue. She seemed to like this, so I kept it up for a while. I then started trying to delve into her pussy with my tongue. This got an even better reaction from her, so I tried to see how far I could get my tongue into her body.

I knew what a clit was and I knew it was the center of a womans pleasure. I hoped Id find it and I did. When my tongue passed over it, Kathys butt bounced up off the bed to try to maintain contact.

I experimented with it, licking, sucking and nibbling it. Within a couple of minutes Kathy was having a massive orgasm. She moaned and mewed and her body thrashed around on the bed so strongly I thought she was going to throw me off. When she finally started to come down, I moved up beside her and held her.

That was the most fantastic thing Ive ever felt, Kathy told me after she was back to normal. Ive masturbated, but it was nothing like what you just did to me.

Im glad, I told her. I had no idea what I was doing. Ive read a few things, but I was mostly flying blind.

Well, blind man, do you think we could finish this off?

Only if you really want to, Love. Well take things at your speed.

Oh, Im ready, Ed. I dont want to wait any longer. I need you inside me.

We kissed then I moved between her legs. When my cock touched her pussy for the first time, I thought I was going to explode. Kathy smiled at me, bravely, but I could tell there was a little fear there as well. I forgot all about my feelings and my desire and concentrated on making this as easy for her as I could. 

She helped to position me at the opening to her vagina and I just let my cock rest there for a moment. I was looking into her eyes as I applied a gentle pressure. When the head of my cock popped inside her, I stopped immediately.

When I thought she looked comfortable with what was going on, I inched forward, then moved back to where I had been before. She smiled and nodded, so I did it again. I continued in this manner until our pubic hair meshed, then I stopped again.

Are you okay? I asked her.

More than okay, Ed. This feels wonderful. You can go ahead anytime youre ready.

I did. I started with long, slow strokes. Stopping briefly each time when I was all the way in. Kathy started moving under me, so I picked up the pace. I wish I could say I held off while Kathy had a half a dozen orgasms, but as soon as her pussy started fluttering with her release, I went over the edge as well.

We both ended up as a pile of boneless protoplasm on the bed. When I was finally able to regain my sanity enough to speak, I asked her how she was.

Im perfect, she said. Theres no way in the world I could feel any better.

We laid there for a while and I glanced over at the clock. Are you aware its one thirty in the morning? I asked her. Would you like for me to walk you home?

I thought Id just spend the night here if I may, she said.

What about your parents? I asked.

Fuck em, she said with a big smile.

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Finale

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It was on a Friday afternoon, two weeks before school was out, when Marv came into my cubicle and asked if he could come by the apartment and talk with Kathy and me the next day. We didnt have anything planned, so I agreed.

Kathy and I had decided we would both go to our local community college for our first year. She was going to move in with me after school was out and wed work full time during the summer to have a nice nest egg.

When Marv showed up the next morning, we got him some coffee and talked about work for a few minutes, then he dropped the bomb.

So, he said with a half smile on his face. How would you kids like to be millionaires before you get out of high school? he asked.

Kathy and just looked at each other, totally stunned.

You know the patents came through about a month ago, Marv continued. Well, Ive been negotiating with a company since long before the patents came in. Theyre big in factory automation systems and they were very interested in your design.

Okay, I said.
 
Theyve made us an offer of fifteen million up front and a substantial royalty on every unit using your design that they sell. To me it sounds too good to pass up.

Damned straight! Kathy said.

I just nodded and he went on. Thats five million each, kids. Were rich!

We made love after Marv left. After the first time, wed made love a lot. It got better every time. Kathy had been staying at the apartment frequently after that first time. Her parents had threatened her, but there wasnt anything they could really do. Shed be eighteen in just a few days and I was legally an adult.

We came down from our orgasms and I asked, Karen, Ive come to love you more than life itself. Will you marry me?

 Karen squeezed me tightly, then said, Yes, my love, I will marry you. The day Im eighteen if youll have me.

I had been in the apartment for eight months when Marv came to see us. My parents hadnt tried to contact me even once during that time. I guess its petty, but I was looking forward to doing a little gloating

Kathy and I talked about it and she was all for me showing off a little. We decided to pay my parents a visit.

When I rang the doorbell, dad opened the door. Hello, Edward, he said, but he was standing, blocking the door and he made no move like he was going to let us in.

Could we come in, Dad? Theres something Kathy and I would like to talk to you and mom about.

Reluctantly, it seemed, he stepped aside and let us in. Mom and Kathleen were in the living room when we went in. As we entered the room, Kathleen saw me and squealed.

Eddie! she screamed, then she ran over and threw her arms around me. 

Its good to see you Leenie, I said as I picked her up and hugged her. Ive missed you.

Ive missed you too, Eddie. Why havent you called us? Where have you been? None of us knew where you were.

Ill tell you later, Love, I told her.

Mom nodded her head at us as Kathy and I took a seat.

I just wanted to let you guys know that Kathy and I are getting married as soon as school is out, I told them.

Weve already told you we will not help you out financially, mom said.

We know that, Mom. We wont be needing any help from you, I told her.

Dad had an almost evil look when he said, I certainly hope youre right, Edward. When you decided to have yourself declared an adult, you cut off all ties with us. As far as were concerned youre not our son any more,

Thats fine, Dad. You never really were parents to me anyway. Leenie is still my sister though and wed like for her to come to our wedding.

Oh, Ill be there, Leenie said emphatically. Just tell me when and where.

Well see about that, Kathleen, mom finally spoke up. You know, Edward, its really kind of stupid to think that two kids just out if high school are going to be able to make it financially.

Not really, Mrs. Dobson, Kathy said with a smirk. You see, Ed and I are probably worth a lot more than you and your husband are right now. Weve spent the last eight months developing and patenting a new computer. Weve just sold the rights to it for ten million dollars, plus a sizeable commission on every computer the company sells. I think were pretty much set for life.

Oh, Eddie, Leenie squealed again. Im so happy for you.

Thanks, Leenie, I said. Honey, mom and dad knew where Ive been ever since I left. I havent called here because they made it quite clear they didnt want me to.

Eddie! Leenie looked shocked.

Leenie, honey, I think we should get going. You can tell by the atmosphere that were not welcome here.

Can I go with you, Eddie? Leenie asked. Theres so many things Id like to talk to you about.

Sure, Leenie, well bring you back after while, I said.

Kathleen, youre not going anywhere, mom shouted.

Kathleen just looked at her and followed Kathy and I out to my car.

Mom and dad are going to be pissed at you, I said.

I know, Kathleen said, looking a little apprehensive.

Fuck em, Kathy said.

All three of us cracked up as we got into the car.

Kathy and I had a good talk with Leenie that afternoon. I learned a lot about my sister that afternoon. I think she learned a lot about us, too. When we dropped her off, she kissed me, then kissed Kathy. 

Kathys parents seemed indifferent when we told them that evening that we were getting married. We never even told them about our good fortune.

Over the last several months, the four guys who had beaten me up had some unfortunate experiences themselves. It seems that each of them had found themselves alone at some point and had suffered much the same thing that had happened to me. None of them could or would supply any information about who had attacked them. Each of them had given everyone the impression it had been a gang that had done it though.

Thats the first time Id ever been called a gang.

